If you are wondering why there is no more extraneous run data on here it is because I figure if you are actually here to see how often I run then you can flip through the nike+ post above.
While running today I was thinking about if I am doing this too often. The whole working out thing. It feels, sometimes, as if I am doing it too much. I am still dropping weight since my old job location. I left there weighing in at 212 lbs and now I am at 203 lbs. I am pleased with this progress.
So there have been some genuine concerns brought up by my friends. For example, You seem to be running a lot, is it an addiction? In a way, maybe it is, it has increased the quality of my life. I am feeling better about myself and it is beginning to reflect in other ways. I am slowly building up a more positive self image, which is great, and I am finding ways to communicate with others in a positive way. Being able to share something positive and interesting about myself, which can begin a conversation.
Another concern has been: "Are you doing this for the wrong reasons?" Which reasons are those, you might ask? Well, for starters, an obsession of self, a narcissistic attitude and an attempt to ignore the world at large. Both are fair concerns, I have a lot of pride and I have a hard time hanging out with people. I am finding, though, that the pride is different now. Less on the physical me and more on the inside me.
Ignoring the world at large. That is me to a t. I like the solitude of running. I like the fact that you do not need a team of runners to run, you can just run. Still I long to belong to something bigger than me.
Running is doing good things to me. It is soothing and it has psychological healing properties. I like it.
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